When I'm on sugar, which I am right now, even jelly will do. Ugghh. Going back on Medifast on Friday! At least I haven't gained any weight back.

On another Southwest flight and lookie at the seat belt!! No more extender! 41.5 pounds later, plus I survived the holidays! Well, I gained 3.5 pounds in a week between Christmas and New Years, but I already lost it and am back on track.

Happy New Year!

Miraculously, I found pistachios in this holiday cookie mix at the office. Jeeminy Christmas! I mindlessly bit into a homemade cookie, began chewing, noticed the feeling of a Pavlovian sugar euphoria beginning to surge, spit the cookie out, and stepped away from the counter. Oy. Constant struggle against sugar. But, I triumphed this time! Of course, all I can think about are these pretzels as the day goes on. Oy! Is it 5:00 yet???

Another batch of holiday cookies and candy has arrived. Ugghh! I mindlessly started to eat a piece of candy as soon as I saw it, chewed it up a little, realized what I was doing, then spit it out before swallowing all those sugar and fat calories!! As long as I don't see it, I don't even think about it. But when I SEE enemy foods I automatically want them!! Crap! Now my wacky addicted brain is going to obsess about the goodies in the staff room ALL day long, now that I know they are there. This is perhaps my biggest food challenge. How does one turn off the lusting brain and stop it from obsessing over sugar???? I did eat candy yesterday, so the relapse has me craving more!!!! Now I gotta wait three days for the craving to subside. I'm so screwed with this holiday season!! So hard to stay on task. But dammit, one day at a time, right!? For me, it's also one candy-laden
staff room visit at a time!!

408 calorie candy splurge at office holiday party! Oy. Sugar.

"Water. Drink the water" --EVP on a recent episode of "Ghost Adventures." It's actually good advice really! Hey! Look at this! MolarTron got a retweet by lead ghost investigator Zak Bagans a while ago! It was so cool! My phone blew up with retweets and favorites and new followers! Thanks Zak! Now if I will only drink the water! Gotta get the water down. Very very important, true?

Lookie!! The camera likes me again! Even at 51 years old! I'm really happy! And that sugar craving went away finally. And you have seen all the holiday cookies at the office today. Oy!!!! Hey! Happy Hanukkah! No latkas for me this year!

Did you know that I used to be a professional plus-size model? When I see a photo like this, I feel really confident and attractive. I'm thinking of maybe ringing up my old agents in Florida when I get down to a size 16. What the hell? Why not, right??! Nothing to lose! Ok, well, I have forty more pounds to lose.

My Aunt Barbara told me, "You're getting your face back!" My mom keeps calling me "Skinny" now every time she sees me! I'm down 41 pounds.
Now the challenge is to drop ten more pounds and get my ass back in the gym. I'm going for an apple bottom. I never had a nice ass, or a flat stomach, so I'm going for it. I gotta experience living and feeling like a fit person before 12-21-12. Not really sure what's gonna happen then, but I got a short bucket list just in case: go out on one last fantastic date! Eat whatever I want on Christmas day (oh wait! That will be after the 21st, if we are alive), and have a tight ass. Ok. I think it can be done.

I am dying to stick my finger in the icing!! This is what I have to face every day at the office: sugar. The enemy. I have a headache from detoxing off the sugar I had yesterday. My addiction and cravings for it are in overdrive....can't....have....sugar....ever....again!! Arrrrrggghhh!!! I'm gonna beat this addiction, dammit!!! I have to leave the staff room NOW! Where's my waterrrrrr??? ok, one more whiff...but does even smelling this enemy fuel the cravings? Maybe I need to just walk away, leave it alone, get the heck away....retreat! Pull back! Step away from the cupcakes!!!

This Sugar addiction is very strong. I am craving sugar terribly right now. I've been sucking down sugarfree Popsicles in the hopes that I will trick my brain into feeling satisfied. Today it's not going so well, because I have to work now! I did have sugar yesterday, only 8 g, but still…

Wow! Amazing results to show you!! My scrubs are so big now! I can fit your leg AND mine in the pants!! Lol. Goodbye 40 pounds of fat!!

Ya think it's time to either shop or see a seamstress or WHAT???!!! Lol.

Well Jeeeminy Christmas! I made it through the Thanksgiving holiday/Mom's 75th birthday weekend blast, but I took a lot of measured food hits. Measured at first. Sugar bombs pummeled me for four days straight, and my body took numerous bangs and jolts. My will to resist was broken in two bites of pecan pie, and by the first half hour I was sucked in and under the spell of sweet glorious sugar. Ahhh! My head cleared. I felt a surge of energy and alertness awaken each of my cells. Sugar! My seductive Mistress. Yes, come to me. All the sudden I had to have more. And more. Pie. Cakes. Cookies. Fruit. Potatoes. Miraculously, I avoided the breads. However, the breading in stuffing and on chicken tenders was mistakenly not off limits. I devoured sugar, salt, & fat.
Then I passed out. Six hours later, I woke up in a funky milky haze. Cough cough. Uggggh. Thar be milk in these pastries! Arrrrggghhhh!!!!

3 days. I must detox from sugar for three days. Oyyy.

33 pounds of fat LOST with Medifast, dieting, and swimming!

Well, it's official!  I'm down 33 pounds as of a week ago, which means I am likely down a bit more than 33 pounds of cold hard FAT!  Yeee hawww!!

Here are the pool pics I took when I started on August 23, 2012:

 

And here I am November 9, 2012, about 33 pounds less.  I can definitely see the loss in my arms, neck, face, and stomach.  My legs are more tone with all the swimming!  Can you tell I have lost some of the "bloat?"  I have about 70 more pounds to go.  

Hi! I'm here in San Francisco for work! What a challenge to be in this glorious city with restaurants on every corner. There are so many restaurants here that if you ate breakfast, lunch, and dinner at a different restaurant each time, you STILL would never eat at all these restaurants!!

This trip, I am not eating my way through this town. Instead, I am eating only proteins and veggies in restaurants.

I pack my lunch in a thermos, and walk the streets with cereals & ready-made shakes in my knapsack. So far so good. My clothes are getting super loose and when I get back to Ohio I'm going to have to get new scrubs!

Here's the view from The Cheesecake Factory at Macys! Everyone is partying, eating, drinking, walking, and enjoying the heat wave!

I'm heading to California today, and check out this seat belt on the plane!!! Last time I flew I had to get a seat belt extender because the seat belt was way too tight. This is a huge sweet milestone! Yay!

I'm down 26.4 pounds and what a difference! It was much easier to tie my shoes after the security checkpoint, too.

As for the food challenge for the next 12 days, I'm on it! I had to pack an extra suitcase to fit all the food in so I can take it all with me! I also packed a thermos so I can take a warm lunch to work next week.

My Ready-Made shake got confiscated at security. They said it's over the size limit for liquids. Oh well, I packed plenty of cereal for the ride so I'm ready for anything!!!

Up up and awaaaay!

I'm on the left! I'm 1/4 of the way to my goal! Go Bucks!

GAME DAY! OSU vs. NEBRASKA!

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So many food challenges today. I'm drinking tea and water but that's a drag because there are nasty porta-potties only! Yuck.

I do have to say that I am feeling the weight loss! I feel great! Lots of energy, and as long as I eat protein soon (grilling salmon and saying NO to hotdogs!), I'll be in good shape! I added a bit of chicken to the chicken soup to give me that extra protein. Ok, I'm workin' it !!

Potluck at Ohio Dental Family Center, 5180 E. Main St., Columbus, Ohio 43213

Today we had a huge potluck at work. I didn't eat a thing, just like I didn't eat the fries at "M!" I'm on a roll!